My wedding took place on October 16, 2021. And exactly six months later a crisis came in my family. A little over a week has passed, the main feelings have already subsided and in order to completely let go of this situation I decided to write a gonzo review of the game Florence.
Introduction
In my gaming experience, I was very impressed by the games from the Anapurna publisher: What Remains of Edit Finch, The Suicide of Rachel Foster, Gorogoa, and then I came across Florence.
When I played this game for the first time, I understood it mentally, but didn’t fully feel it. And to completely let go of the current situation and experience this game.
Act I. Chapter 1. Adult life.
It all starts with an ordinary morning. When, instead of going to bed early and getting some sleep, you sit on TikTok or get stuck on YouTube, and then wake up in the morning by an alarm clock that you constantly put off.
A quick breakfast, washing up, packing for work, public transport, a phone and an app that helps you take your mind off the real world and transport yourself to a secluded corner of social media. networks.
And at work you perform a monotonous and tedious operation.
And in the middle of the day you begin to unwind the spiral of everyday life back: work – bus – wash – dinner – sleep. With a slight difference before bed.
Act I. Chapter 2. Memories.
I once found an old notebook in which, back in school, I wrote my various thoughts, short stories and my “magnum opus”: the poem “What to Read on the Subway”.
Favorite four lines in this poem:
And time will stop,
A second lasts forever.
And a shot in the crown.
Most likely I simply suffered from graphomania, since I filled a whole 12-sheet notebook with similar lines.
I remember once in the animated series "Family Guy" Brian boasts about his new poem, to which Stewie asks him if there is a line about fire and ice in his poems, to which Brian tells him to go to hell. I laughed at this joke, I had these lines.
I had problems with the Russian language, I couldn’t express my thoughts well, there were spelling and punctuation errors, and my handwriting wasn’t the best, so I paid more attention to more exact sciences. But I always wanted to write something great.
Act II. Chapter 4. Collapse.
Nowadays it is very fashionable to call the feeling of falling in love – “Crash”. I knew my wife back in college, we studied together for five years, but the “Crash” came after another three years. When I worked as an electrician at a factory. She made permits and organized the workplace.
Act II. Chapter 5. First dates.
It’s stupid to talk about first dates, they always go differently for everyone, but at the beginning it’s difficult to find the words.
Then it gets easier.
And then the words themselves find each other.
Act III. Chapter 6. Dreams.
With your loved ones you share not only something material, but also the most precious thing – your dreams. I shared mine about how I want to become a screenwriter.
My future wife tried in every possible way to encourage me to write texts (goodies for written pages, arranging a tabletop party for posting my text on blogs, forums or other social networks. network), but I was afraid of negative experience and feedback, so I didn’t give in to motivation.
My Love also had Simbagames-Casino.co.uk many desires, but we concentrated on one thing, sewing.
Act III. Chapter 7. Inspiration.
My then-not-yet-wife wanted to enroll in a sewing course and asked my permission, without hesitation I said “Of course.”. I helped her financially and wished her luck in her endeavors.
When she returned from school, she always said that she was behind everyone else in the course, to which I said: “you’re just starting”, “you’ll succeed”.
When She did her homework, she did it very well, although she said that there were a lot of “jambs” in her work.
Watching her sew, I also slowly wrote my script for the film.
Act III. Chapter 8. Study.
The strangest stage in a relationship is showing your significant other the whole world.
We pulled each other, now to our closest relatives, now to distant relatives, now to the sea, now to the mountains, now to rivers, now to lakes.
It’s as if you are building a web of “places of power” where, when you visit again, you get a wave of wonderful memories and nostalgia.
Act IV. Chapter 9. Grocery.
There are not only bright spots in a relationship, there are gray and even dark days. Everything always starts with a little thing, with a random word.
And such small squabbles develop into small quarrels and grievances.
But usually, these grievances did not last long; as a rule, we made up on the same day on which we argued.
Act IV. Chapter 10. Moving.
How strange it is, to live together, you need to live together. My apartment is under renovation to this day. And my future wife had a one-room apartment into which I safely moved.
They gave me a corner where I put a table, a computer, and a couple of personal belongings. As they say in cramped conditions, but don’t be offended.
Act IV. Chapter 11. Happy together.
After living together for a little over a year, I proposed to her and she became the Bride.
This is how we lived, communicated, loved. And as I said above, the wedding took place on October 16. Best time.
Act V. Chapter 12. Routine.
The first month of life together, very affectionate, warm. We constantly refer to each other as "Husband" and "Wife". Everything is very nice.
But after a couple of months everything falls into routine.
But we more or less coped with it, but the pressure of routine was still felt.
The wife continued to take sewing classes and with each lesson her skills became better and better
. I put it in the back drawer due to that same routine.
Act V. Chapter 13. Struggle.
At the end of March of this year, I began to feel some changes in my Wife’s mood, but I did not attach much importance to this due to the then political and economic situation. I had no idea about the impending crisis.
Act V. Chapter 15. Drift
On April 17, 2022, after six months of our marriage, my Wife informs me that we need to separate, since she fell in love with someone else. And this is the saddest moment in our relationship. After these words, I hugged her for a very long time, with the thought that when I unclenched my hands, I could lose her forever.
Act V. Chapter 16. Move out
I was mindlessly packing my things, and my Wife packed a bag of food for me for the next few days. I moved into an apartment that I’m renovating. Our apartments are nearby, about 15-20 minutes on foot, I probably made 5 walks and carried most of my things.
Act VI. Chapter 17. Fragments
For myself, I realized that I don’t want to forget My Love, I will remember every moment. Still, I love her.
Act VI. Chapter 16. Let go.
But you still can’t live with memories, so you need to let go.
Act VI. Chapter 19. Wake up
. and wake up from these days of soul-searching.
While clearing out my things while moving, I found my script. And I decided to start again, I will try to blog.
And once I figure out the renovations in the apartment, I’ll most likely buy a course of lectures on screenwriting. Maybe it will work, maybe it won’t. It’s time to find out.
Act VI. Chapter 20. Move on.
Everything will be. Fine.
Afterword
Florence’s game resonates very well with the player, you can sympathize with both characters. And in my case, I got empathy from this game. At the chapter “Moving Out,” I cried because I recently experienced these feelings. But in the chapter “Wake up” I was already sobbing out loud, realizing that time and all these hardships would pass and this would be memories.
I recommend the game to people who are in relationships, as they say, learn from other people’s mistakes. And also for people who are experiencing painful breakups, this will help to understand, accept and let go of the breakup.
P.S. Please leave comments, your feedback is important to me.
Best comments
Turned out great. And very touching.
As a person who has never played this game and has also never been married, I really liked the review, but at the same time (paradox!) I don’t feel like playing this at all.
I don’t see this format often
Somehow bland. You wrote a very typical story about how you had a couple and now you are alone. And what was good, then it became bad, now you get out, well, yes, it happens. What does this have to do with a computer game and this blog in general?? What should I take away from your breakup story?? Why should you pay attention to this game?? And most importantly, how to still accept a breakup? Where is the answer to the question you posed in the title??
This is Annapurna, they publish games not for a large audience, but rather for certain groups.
Thank you for this feedback, in my next works I will try to clarify my idea.
In general, good luck in your new endeavors! Both in writing and in real life
Thank you for such an emotional blog! Made me cry) I’ll wait more)
It turned out not to be emotional but more personal. Thanks for the feedback, I will try))
The feeling that you yourself don’t know what you want to write and what idea you want to convey to the reader. All I got from the text is that you dated a girl and broke up, that’s all. It may look harsh, but don’t be offended, you asked for feedback. And if we get personal, I wish you not to get hung up on your ex, etc.d., and also do not under any circumstances drown your feelings in alcohol or drugs. On her alone the light did not converge like a wedge!
Oh, these new comments… the whole message was cut off
I understand, but it’s not the gameplay that scares me away, it’s the subject matter that’s being talked about. Not mine at all. But it was interesting to read another person’s experience in this game and in my life.
